Just wrote one of the best lyrics ever; y'all should just know how dope it is... On top of everything that's going on in my life, I keep lukin on the bright side, I mean it's never so bad that it can get worse right?! Soemthing good just happened, God decided to listen to my prayers for once and I'm supa happy, I got one word for y'all, UCLA ! lol damn I'm happy, mama your boy be going to college ! Dueces

Today is my birthday, or here in euroupe I got 10 minutes left of it anyway; I never celebrated my bday like it was a big thing bcuzh when I was a little kido my pops told me that my birthday was a day to remember when I fucked up my parents life I never Listen to what he said that nigguh is just full of bullshit! So me and my twin Antwan (rip) never cared bout his cracked up words.. anyway I haven't seen my real pops since November 2008 he's in jail not that that's any of your business but yeah, so he lost custody of me and brother in December 2008 (I just have my brother left) I absolutely hate my dad for what he did and I don't want anything to do with him and he knows that ! EVEN DOE that nigguh takes the time to write me a letter for my bday saying how sorry he was for things that happen in the past , again lots of bullshit! I didn't even bother to finish reading the first sentence cus I don't wanna hear it less read it. Does it make me a bad person hating my pops , y'all cant tell me yes or no cus y'all don't know what he did and I know God want people to forgive but I just cant forgive that nigguh he is dead to me and I truly don't miss him ! Dueces

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Sorry for bad updates, just didn't find time to log on and write anything. I don't wanna sound like a dick head that cares bout people that I've erased from my life but YOU, I can't stand YOU; YOU run on my nerves 24/7 and YOU tryna be someone that you ain't !! urgh no you know what I'm not even gon waist my time jacking about what I dislike about you. Dueces !

uhm i don't expect anybody to actually read my posts. this is just a way for me to wrtie anything that pops up in my head; which right now is pretty much.. Got a lot of thoughts running thru my head and trust me, they run faster than Usain Bolt.. and they be knockin me down like keri hilson's song. this morning i took my bike (yeah black people can bike) and i biked to church because i like going to church, i am a Christian and in my family, we believe in God like lil kids believe in santa .. anywho so i went to the morning service and the service lasted for 2 hours and afterwards i didn't know where my mind was, it all didn't make no sense and the more i thought about shit that fitted into my life the more confused i got; the minister was saying one thing but my thoughts were saying something so completely different. i ended up feeling sad and the one question that i wanna know the answer too, the question "why" wasn't answered today either. i'm starting to think that nobody can tell me why. not even God.. so here i stand, like a confused lil boy that lost his family in a zoo, impatient to find them. but i wont find em, im just stuck with the question "why" ;; and nobody can tell me why they left, why God took them. because whatever answer i will hear, i know i'm not going to like it, less believe in it

well so i decided to start a new blog here @ blogg.se. for those who read my ish @blogger this gon b basically the same deal. I'm going to write about my thoughts and ish like that. read or leave; here I go