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okey so you know what. i'm gonna post some special today yeah. cus im drowning right now. yessur i am. i'm drowning in my own anxiety and it doesn't feel that good. no it don't . shit be running back to my faster then tyson gay.. karma. yes its karma so .. when i was a little kiddo like 10 or 13 or some. i was a crazy nigga, yes i did the most fucked up things. bad shit. and now karma is eating me up alive for real for real. i lost my family almost 2 years ago now and im starting to think that is i were a "good boy" before i meet em. they would still be alive. but you never know what God has planed out for you so why bother thinking about it, it just make you sad..
dude
i dont get why people still check my blogg.. i never upload anything. but im going to get better trust me, or no dont trust me .. check this site in a week or some or maybe in a day. cus im gon get this page poppin, yep right here is where its going down. yep
that don't fly mah !
yup
The Mind state of a winner when you thinkin bout summertime
i’m thinkin bout the winter. when you thinkin bout breakfast,
I’m heatin up my dinner. I was plottin this moment back when yall was ridin spinners.
Now I’m a menace. God as my witness, with this pen I’m insane, yup.
Hungry like the nigga who ain’t got the taste of fame yet.
Cloud told me “ain’t you roc? well where the fuck yo chain at?”
Guess it’s somethin like your girl, it aint came yet.
The man make the chain chain dont make the man
how many niggas do we know with hella ice but yet they lame
the cloth from which we came me and them is not the same
Like we all headed to spain, they took the boat nigga i took the plane.Dang
That boy sick.Now Hoes on his joystick. Heatin up like may weather dog
i’m on that floyyd shyt.Boy stick, to ya day job.
Said you was hot but they lied. Is that ya girl? Well I just g’d her no a rod.
The lil engine that could, this lil nigga is good
rappers claiming they sick i heal niggas for good
a couple of yall aint took a field trip to the hood
ay me im fresh prince im will smith to the hood Baby!
aint sayin names but we not the same
all that money and the fame dont change the fact that u lame
might wanna grab you a chain wanna tip up your hat
might wanna purchase some game homie your shit is so wack!!!
i got my finger on the trigger tell that nigga hold datt
boy im picture perfect baby you can check the Kodak
hey so anything you can do i can do better and any chick you can screw i can get wetter
im young black get to live my life on the run! bet ya bottom dollar before im done
they say that im the oneeeeeee, yeah nigga im the onee HA!!
i’m thinkin bout the winter. when you thinkin bout breakfast,
I’m heatin up my dinner. I was plottin this moment back when yall was ridin spinners.
Now I’m a menace. God as my witness, with this pen I’m insane, yup.
Hungry like the nigga who ain’t got the taste of fame yet.
Cloud told me “ain’t you roc? well where the fuck yo chain at?”
Guess it’s somethin like your girl, it aint came yet.
The man make the chain chain dont make the man
how many niggas do we know with hella ice but yet they lame
the cloth from which we came me and them is not the same
Like we all headed to spain, they took the boat nigga i took the plane.Dang
That boy sick.Now Hoes on his joystick. Heatin up like may weather dog
i’m on that floyyd shyt.Boy stick, to ya day job.
Said you was hot but they lied. Is that ya girl? Well I just g’d her no a rod.
The lil engine that could, this lil nigga is good
rappers claiming they sick i heal niggas for good
a couple of yall aint took a field trip to the hood
ay me im fresh prince im will smith to the hood Baby!
aint sayin names but we not the same
all that money and the fame dont change the fact that u lame
might wanna grab you a chain wanna tip up your hat
might wanna purchase some game homie your shit is so wack!!!
i got my finger on the trigger tell that nigga hold datt
boy im picture perfect baby you can check the Kodak
hey so anything you can do i can do better and any chick you can screw i can get wetter
im young black get to live my life on the run! bet ya bottom dollar before im done
they say that im the oneeeeeee, yeah nigga im the onee HA!!
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texten beskriver exakt how it is...
Fast jag vet att du äntligen har hittat ro, så vill jag inget hellre än ha dig här vid mig min bror. din saknad är stor, men allt det där får ta sin tid, nu lever jag på minne som berikare mitt liv, ber för vår familj och tänder ett ljus för dig, och jag lever på lågan som du gav till mig, detta ljus kommer förevigt att brinna till ditt minne, förnekar alltid allt för jag tror du sitter inne, jag väntar fortfafande på att du ska komma hem; jag saknar dig Chris, min bror och bästa vän..
about me;;
i so happens to be alexis wingman! im sorry i cant grant your every wish.
i never was a good liarWatch me laugh out loud, it'll make your momma proud.
The truth is my Brain is Mush . I currently live in the 80's.. it was better then.
i jerk like a sick kidd;; and i be runin shit like Usain Bolt - My swagga is D.O.P.E
+ i got more game than an xbox - congratulations mom and dad;; you've created a monster
i miss my hood
a while back hahah
aint that some funny shit?
I'm hungry - aint got no money..
I wanna call my baby - aint got no batteri left on my stupid muvafuckin flintstone phone..
I wanna sleep and when i wake up everything will be like it was 2 years ago ...
I want a lot of things, but i shouldn't complain cus even though i aint got a lot a got a little..
happiness love and all that good stuff;; im out people Dueces
dude . . .
sometimes life is good, sometimes life is great, but sometimes it can suckk somethang dang !
i love this shit lol
i love skating man and this right here make me miss it even more, use to spend everyday @ the skatepark but now my knee is fucked up so i can't skate as much as i use to.. pretty sad cuzh im hella good, in 2008 i had 8 sponsors and two of em were NIKE and EMERICA SUUCK ON THAT BITCHES
Still Staying Strong
I'm so tired, can't keep my eyes open, I wrote a new lyric today bout my best friend Chaya. I love and miss her, she died 2 years ago.. Losing her wasn't easy, but tell me is it easy to lose anybody? No it's not. Me and her did everything together and I really mean everything. We spend every minute of everyday together, we knew everything about each other, yep she were more like a sister to me. Losing her was like losing a part of myself. As kids both me and her had a hart times daily @ home so having a friend that were kinda going thru the same was nice, no nice aint the word but you get it, I had someone to share everything with, because she understood, not like a lot of my other loser friends that just said oh okey I get it.. NO you don't get it stop tryna understand... I'm going to lay down for a moment I'll log on later and write something else I guess. Ain't got nothing else to do today since my baby ain't reachable haha.. happiness love and all that good stuff;; I'm Out people, dueces
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maybe it's true. we don't know what we have until we've lost it but maybe its also true that we don't know what we're missing until we find it ..
God got your back
Well today were an interesting day.. Woke up around 6 and I didn't feel so good called my baby up; need to get calm. I'm fucked up, I really don't know what's going on with me. Enough with the bad stuff. Around like 1PM? I called my baby up one more time, I felt a little bit better, her and her brother's homegurl were on their way to GBG, so for like 2 hours we talked, pretty funny. that chick is supa dope and I aint even playin ! Anyway.. I'm having one of those bad days, you know when like noting goes the way you want it too. I'm hungry - aint got no food @ home or no money to buy food .. but I guess that's life right? can't always have what you want. And I really can't complain, cause I eat like almost everyday and I got fresh water to drink, so think about those kids that doesn't have food or water. I mean for people in sweden, food and water you people take for granted, you shouldn't.. Please be thankful for what you have. God blessed you with food so be thankful.
happiness love and all that good stuff;; I'm out Dueces
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I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much...
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I didn't ask for anything.. but God gave me everything
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Love Is A Game That Two Can Play, And Both Win, But Some Choose To Cheat !
The road to God's paradise must be describe by God himself..
death.. I heard that word 10 times today. I don't like that word, maybe because it happened to many times in my life. I'm not afraid of dying, no sir I'm not afraid of death . The word just give me the crepe but I'm not afraid of it. I see it more as a way for me to meet and be reunited with the people that I've lost. I miss em and if I die I don't want it to be this sad thing were people cry and shit! No I want people to be happy and smile and thank God that he gave me a life, it doesn't matter when I die, because I've already proved that I'm stranger than most people think. Some people didn't thought that I would live to see 16, but guess what? I turned 16 two weeks ago. So far I've had an alright life, I can't say good life because then I would be lying. My life, well for those of you who doesn't know me I can describe my life for yall in two words, fucked up because if I tell my lifestory here that's the first word you would get in your head... Back to death, if I die I would see it as a release, a release from my life, and as I would leave earth I would be going on a journey up to heaven and when God let me into his paradise I will get to meet my family, now what the fuck is the scary part? There isn't any. Love the people in your life because God will need them back one day, and he will. So make sure you treat them good if you don't , God will treat them better and when you regret that you didn't did surtan things it'll already be to late.. God Gives And God Takes, I'm sorry but that's the way it is, trust me I know...
happiness love and all that good stuff;; I'm out people . Dueces !
Miracle
God's Son ;; Making My Momma Proud ;; Living Life To The Fullest - Trying
to..
I wanna do a shout out; I got a text message from a friend, her baby brother were in a car accident 4 years ago and he is lucky to be alive, there was 5 people in the car, only one made it and that was Joe (my friends baby brother) the doctor told him that he'd never walk again and today 4 years later the kid is walking. This shit make me happy, Joe is a true hero & he is a Inspiration. a BIG shout out to Joe ! see kid God never forget the good things that you've done, and it pays off. he help you in a few years you're going to be able to join the track team football team or whatever, we love you man ! BLESSINGS !
happiness love and all that good stuff;; I'm out people dueces
What If God Were One Of Us, Just a Stranger On a Bus, Tryna Make His Way Home..
I'm on the bus and this ugly ass chick be staring @ me with this strange look haha anyway I'm on my way to church. Been spending a lot of time there lately really don't know why I just like being @ church and feel the vibe of my fam.. You guys might find that dorky but I don't .. The spirit of the ones you lost lives not only in you, it lives in church as well. Damn I've become all Christian (more then I was) since my family died. Kinda like it but there's some people that don't like it. But who are they to judge? There's only one who can judge me, and that is God. YOU don't have the right to judge me, you don't know me, God dose. You didn't bless me with things, God did. so homie before you start judging me just because I've changed, try to see it from my point of view (you never will but try) try to picture yourself losing everyone that you love in a blink of an eye. try to feel how that feels. I hope you never get to go thru hell like I did. I hope God have better plans for you. Well I'm bout to leave the bus and start walking in the rain -.- great the rain is going to fuck up my sneakers. (Y)
happiness love and all that good stuff, I'm out people, much love dueces ...
Not Everyone Are Willing To Forgive
we make em' all the time. the problem is, our mistakes is written in pen so we can't erase them. but we can and will learn from them. and so we do. slowly we learn that something we've done in the past is the wrong thing to do and when we face it to do it again, we reconsider, we think one extra time so that we don't make that same mistake. I have trouble learning doing right, and I admit that. I do things without thinking bout what it is I'm doing, without thinking whom I hurt, without thinking bout the consequences. </span>/<span style="font-weight: normal;"> There are times and moments in our life when we have something that some people call a "blackout" , a moment that last for only a few seconds, and during those second, we don't remember anything. We don't think, we just end up doing something. Afterwards we have to deal with the consequences. and most of the times, we don't like what we're dealing with. I believe that everyone who reads this has heard the quote "Think Before You Act" . If you do that, all the things you do tend to turn out better then "Act Then Think". a way that I've been using for months so I know that it doesn't turn out that well because there are always someone who gets hurt, if it's not you then it might be your loved ones.</span></h2>
<div><span style="font-weight: normal;"><em>happiness love and all that good stuff. im out people ;; much luv dueces..
we make em' all the time. the problem is, our mistakes is written in pen so we can't erase them. but we can and will learn from them. and so we do. slowly we learn that something we've done in the past is the wrong thing to do and when we face it to do it again, we reconsider, we think one extra time so that we don't make that same mistake. I have trouble learning doing right, and I admit that. I do things without thinking bout what it is I'm doing, without thinking whom I hurt, without thinking bout the consequences. There are times and moments in our life when we have something that some people call a "blackout" , a moment that last for only a few seconds, and during those second, we don't remember anything. We don't think, we just end up doing something. Afterwards we have to deal with the consequences. and most of the times, we don't like what we're dealing with. I believe that everyone who reads this has heard the quote "Think Before You Act" . If you do that, all the things you do tend to turn out better then "Act Then Think". a way that I've been using for months so I know that it doesn't turn out that well because there are always someone who gets hurt, if it's not you then it might be your loved ones.
happiness love and all that good stuff. im out people ;; much luv dueces..
McLovin
some people know me as the kid that breaks everything and don't care about what nobody say and some knows me as the dude that jacked my own grandfathers car lol either way, ima nice guy my past is my past so please don't judge me for the things that i've done those things aint relevant. no sir. ima str8 up guy get to know me and you'll see. im nice with it i do my own thing and im the realest nikkah on the scen. i dont fuck with school, i learn from my mistakes and i learn things school can never teach you. ima selfmade nikkah, which mean that i raised myself, so to speak. never had parents that cared for me when i was little so i am who i am today cus of me and the people that i used to hang with. most of them isn't alive today; God took em in and they be living @ his paradise as we speak. almost my entire fam is up there with him, my family my nikkas my homegurls, God took em all but he left me here. don't ask me why cus i have no FUCKIN idea.. maybe this is my blessing from God, his gift from him to me. he's letting me live, snap now that i think about it its thee greatest gift ever. even tho i miss my fam i would miss life more. or.. cus in my life now i have something that make my life worth living. i have a gurl and im still tryna find words that can explain how much she means to me. but i cant. she means too much. i love her too hard so finding a word is gonna be hard cus no word can explain how i really feel about her.
(right now) im getting ready right now, im bout to go on a date with my babylove. happiness love and all that good stuff. im out people ;; much luv dueces..
same as before
There's like a billion things going on in my life right now; some people actually say that I'm going crazy and need some kinda of medical help or something, I took it as a joke but when the gurl I love with all my heart said;; " baby you're starting to go crazy " that's when I knew that something in my brain actually aint right. Since 20 months back the only thing I kept hearing from people was, " how can you've lost so many people and not gone psyko?" well right now it's too much; I'm going crazyy aint it's not a good crazy (don't even know if there is something like goodcrazy?) but ya'll feel me right? during my 16 years long life I've lost more people (death) then some people don't loose in a life time. I aint got my family left, God took em, but I know that're watching over me. But I do got my girlfriend, who I love with all my heart and I really don't know what I'd do without her. She's my family and she changed my life the best way you could ever imagine. I love you baby ! 3 words, 3 words with a big meaning. 3 words that explain what I feel about her. BUT baby, I can spend hours, days and weeks saying I love you, but those 3 words, no matter how powerful they are, they can't describe my love for you, there's not enough words so to speak. you're too good to be true and I'm so blessed to have you in my life. I believe God took my family away but maybe he did it for a reason? yeah I lost my moms and my siblings but I gained a wonderful girlfriend, and I'm so thankful for that. I'm happy she entered my life. And I'm never letting her go. She's here to stay. She's my wifey, my loved one My FUTURE.
(bout that crazything, I do hope this is just a temporary thing .)
DUECES
(bout that crazything, I do hope this is just a temporary thing .)
DUECES
back and forward
okey so i made up my mind, im going with this blog fuck going worldwide lol ! still going to keep my blogger account tho, because i have this feeling that i will change my mind in a minute haha..
